Direct Messages - austin's support group

flybotworld added Antenna to the group. 3/14/2025 3:05 AM

@Austin

3:06 AM

killing yourself is a bad thing

Yeah

3:06 AM

We care about you so much

3:06 AM

Austin you are one of my best friends

3:06 AM

And I know dalk said that.

3:07 AM

But for me, it's true

3:07 AM

You are like an older brother to me.

it doesnt matter anymore so much painful shit has happened and so many people who I cared about and loved used me and abandoned me

3:07 AM

ive been in this community for 10/11 years now Ive seen shit like this everyday since I was 11

3:07 AM

its fucked with me

3:07 AM

and its not getting better

nothing is geting better cause nothing is changing

Antenna added Polotiks to the group. 3/14/2025 3:09 AM

flybotworld changed the channel name: austin's support group 3/14/2025 3:09 AM

flybotworld

nothing is geting better cause nothing is changing

You have the power to change things austin

austin dont

I trusted 4D and my ex, I trusted mapguy and zach, I trusted dorian, I trusted dalk

3:09 AM

look what all happened

dalk still wants to be your friend

3:09 AM

he pleads to me everyday

Austin

I trusted 4D and my ex, I trusted mapguy and zach, I trusted dorian, I trusted dalk

It's because most of them used you

3:10 AM

4D did

3:10 AM

Your Ex did

3:10 AM

Dorian did

3:10 AM

Zach did

3:10 AM

Pretty much all of them did

they all hurt me so much and none of them care

Polotiks

he pleads to me everyday

Same to me as well

Austin

they all hurt me so much and none of them care

dalk does care

3:10 AM

if you want proof i can add him here if hes awake

3:11 AM

which i think hes alseep rn

We can do that later.

i want austin to know dalk cares about him

Antenna

We can do that later.

I do think it's important for dalk to hear Austin's side and vice versa

and that hes not bad

i want austin to know people care about him

dalk and cat dont care or they wouldnt hace done what they did

we all care

no one cares

that he isn't alone

Austin

no one cares

Austin

3:12 AM

I care.

3:12 AM

Polo cares

3:12 AM

Flybot cares (edited)

3:12 AM

(I'm sorry for that typo)

1

3:12 AM

we all care Austin.

Austin

no one cares

we care

I would be DEVASTATED if you killed yourself

devastated

Antenna

I would be DEVASTATED if you killed yourself

You are one of my best friends Austin

3:13 AM

I enjoy having someone to talk to every day

3:13 AM

Having someone to talk to and share to.

Antenna

I would be DEVASTATED if you killed yourself

we all would

I enjoy having someone to play minecraft with.

Life wouldn't be the same without you Austin

thats what it boils down to in the end, doesn't it.

I cant get past the pain of it all Im still in pain over dorian and zach and now this

3:15 AM

its too much

3:15 AM

theres no use anymore

Austin

its too much

I understand that it is a lot

3:16 AM

But think about the good times you had here

weve had many good times

many

the only thing I can think about thats good right now is the friends that I still have but I fear everyday losing them

one of the good times ive had with you was the minecraft server (edited)

we are here for you

im just ready to end it

no please

i know we sound like a broken record

call 988

3:18 AM

im begging

Call 911

3:18 AM

Do it for us

3:18 AM

Please

no not 911

im not calling anyone

3:19 AM

at all

flybotworld

no not 911

If he's a threat to himself then he needs emergency services

988 has a texting line too if you need

Antenna

If he's a threat to himself then he needs emergency services

sorry

Don't be

im not calling or texting anyone

Polotiks

988 has a texting line too if you need

^

you can also text HOME to 741-741

Austin

im not calling or texting anyone

Please austin

Austin

im not calling or texting anyone

please

Do it for us.

3:19 AM

At least

austin im sorry but you need to

do it for the freinds you have made

theres not much we can do

3:20 AM

other than talk you out of it (edited)

and if we can't do that

3:21 AM

i guess we can't do anything

no fly

3:21 AM

we can

3:21 AM

friends get through everything together

3:21 AM

thats what we are for

3:23 AM

austin are you okay

look

3:23 AM

im gonna listen to ali

3:23 AM

if it makes you feel better

Austin

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Austin no. Please

go ahead

3:24 AM

im not going to sit here and make you not delete it

I wanna delete it then stab myself

NO

Austin

I wanna delete it then stab myself

NO

austin please

3:27 AM

dont do this

3:28 AM

austin are you okay

3:28 AM

austin?

its okay not to be okay

3:28 AM

austin?

austin we are here

AUSTIN

3:28 AM

shit

just so much pain

3:37 AM

over and over

I understand.

3:38 AM

Your extremely strong Austin

3:38 AM

For going though all of that

3:38 AM

And still being here

im not gonna make it through it

Yes you are Austin

3:38 AM

Listen to me. Put the knife as far away as you can and go back into your room

3:39 AM

Okay

3:39 AM

?

I put it on my desk I use it incase someone breaks in

Alright

3:39 AM

Promise me you won't touch it to harm yourself

just keep it as far away as you can from you

I cant promise that

Austin

I cant promise that

Please Austin

I already cut my hand with it earlier and bled a lot

:/

3:40 AM

Let's not have that happen again

3:40 AM

Harming yourself only makes things worse

Antenna

Let's not have that happen again

he did it on accident picking it up

Oh

3:41 AM

Mb

well

3:41 AM

it was on accident at first

3:41 AM

then once it happened I helped it

Oh...

3:42 AM

Please promise me that you won't harm yourself

I cant promise that

3:43 AM

sure you got me to put the knife down for rn but itll happen again

3:43 AM

I know it will

At least promise me you won't kill yourself

I dont even wanna "harm myself"

3:43 AM

I just wanna die

Do you believe you're an active threat to your life.

3:44 AM

Answer truthfully

depends

What do you mean by that

you got me to put the knife down rn

3:44 AM

but idk about later

i saw a message get deleted

Austin

you got me to put the knife down rn

If you feel like you're gonna harm yourself/kill yourself

3:45 AM

Call me

what was it

Antenna

Call me

Like my cell

3:45 AM

Don't use the Arn number

3:45 AM

Use my personal one

if your at your friends later today I dont wanna bother you with all my pain

3:45 AM

im just sorry I put you guys through this too

I do not care

call antenna, any family/friends, or 988

Austin

if your at your friends later today I dont wanna bother you with all my pain

Call me

3:45 AM

If you feel like

3:46 AM

You want to harm yourself

3:46 AM

Okay

3:46 AM

I do not care if I get interrupted by you when I'm with your friends if it's an emergency

3:46 AM

And in this case, it is.

3:46 AM

My friends will understand

Idk how much more of life I can do

3:47 AM

like genuinely

3:47 AM

im ready for it to be over

Austin

like genuinely

Austin you have so much to live for okay

3:48 AM

If you die now, you will leave all of your friends

3:48 AM

You will never find anyone to love

3:48 AM

You won't be able to be with your cats & dogs

3:48 AM

You won't be able to taste your favorite food again

at this point im gonna just keep getting used and abandoned by those I love the most

3:48 AM

fuck it

You won't get used by me or floppa. I can promise that

3:49 AM

Your super kind Austin.

3:49 AM

And the only downside to that

3:49 AM

Is that people will sadly use that kindness for their own benefit

3:50 AM

And I bet it's horrible

3:50 AM

To have to go through that

literally jaden, 4d, zach, mapguy, dorian, dalk, cat

3:50 AM

they dont care what they did

Sadly that is true for most of that.

cat and dalk care

But you have to be strong

3:51 AM

Austin

3:51 AM

And lucky for you. You're incredibly strong and smart.

3:51 AM

I mean, you literally run one of the biggest TWC servers in the community

3:52 AM

That is something to be proud of

im getting the knife again fuck this

3:52 AM

im sorry

3:52 AM

I appreciate you guys

3:52 AM

I prob wont respond agai

Austin

3:52 AM

Listen

3:52 AM

Put down the knife

3:52 AM

I will call emergency services and request a welfare check

3:53 AM

I want you alive

you dont know my address

Austin

you dont know my address

Sadly I don't

3:53 AM

3:54 AM

I'm sorry Austin. But like I said, I want you alive.

3:54 AM

And I will do anything to protect you.

just dont call them

Then put the knife down

I dont need my family finding shit out

Antenna

Then put the knife down

I'm sorry Austin. But you have too

Austin

I dont need my family finding shit out

I don't either

3:55 AM

But I want you alive. You mean so much to all of us.

Austin

I dont need my family finding shit out

Are you alive....

yes

Thank the heavens.

Austin

yes

I know you're probably upset with me right now

3:58 AM

But I do hope you understand I just want you to be safe and not kill yourself

3:58 AM

I won't request the welfare check if you put the knife down

im not upset with you at all

3:58 AM

its down for now

Thank you

3:59 AM

Now how about you get into bed, and rest for the night.

im not gonna be able to sleep

3:59 AM

no one understands

3:59 AM

I sleep for an hour or two

Austin

im not gonna be able to sleep

At least try too

then wake up in a panic attack

Antenna

At least try too

Just lay there until you fall asleep... That's what my parents tell me and it works

thats what it has been for the past few weeks

4:00 AM

and they just dont care

Who?

the people that cause the pain

It's because they don't like you.

4:01 AM

However

4:01 AM

You cant focus on the people who are out to get you

4:01 AM

You have to focus on the people who do care about you

4:02 AM

The people who will do anything they can to help you

Austin

literally jaden, 4d, zach, mapguy, dorian, dalk, cat

I do focus on this though becasue at one point or another I loved and treasured these people and all of them hurt me and dont care

Antenna

The people who will do anything they can to help you

The people who may have different views on stuff, but still value you as a friend, best friend, or even as a brother.

Austin

I do focus on this though becasue at one point or another I loved and treasured these people and all of them hurt me and dont care

And those people and fuck themselves

4:03 AM

Okay

4:03 AM

They can't be living in your head rent free

its trauma and pain that I cant escape

4:03 AM

everyday gets worse

:/

4:05 AM

I know you will probably hate me for saying this

4:05 AM

But have you tried looking at therapists? https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists/in/knox

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I have one I tell you each week when I see her..

Mb

Austin

I have one I tell you each week when I see her..

Are you on any medications?

no

4:06 AM

well I am one for when I actually hace anxiety attacks but other than that no

I would talk to your therapist about getting some for general anxiety

4:06 AM

And maybe ask her if you can get a test for depression

4:06 AM

Because you are showing all the signs my brother has

4:07 AM

And he has depression

they said they want to do testing but results take 6-9 months

:/

4:07 AM

Well at least wait for the results

I just wanna die

Antenna

Well at least wait for the results

I do believe you could possibly have it, as you do show similar signs as my brother (suicidal, not wanting professional help, focusing on the people who hurt you). However I am not a professional

Austin

I just wanna die

I understand but you have so many people who care about you

4:09 AM

At around 4 am I am going to try to get some rest. I have a busy day (edited)

4:09 AM

But if you pick that knife up

4:09 AM

Call me immediately

4:09 AM

Personal cell,

4:09 AM

Not arn

4:09 AM

Not discord

4:10 AM

Or call 911.

I don’t wanna bother

Austin

I don’t wanna bother

I do not care

4:10 AM

You are like a brother to me and I will treat you as such.

4:11 AM

That means I will always be here.

4:11 AM

Call me. If I'm asleep I might not immediately answer

4:11 AM

But I do not care if you bother me

4:11 AM

I care more about YOUR safety.

I care more about not bothering people and having more people leave me

I won't leave you Austin

4:12 AM

I promise you that

4:12 AM

And I want you to know that

4:12 AM

Okay

4:12 AM

I will never leave you

4:12 AM

And I will always be here

4:12 AM

Yes I may not respond immediately. I am a busy person.

4:13 AM

But I will always be here for emotional support

4:13 AM

And again. If it's an emergency. Call my cell.

4:13 AM

Or better yet, 911.

I don’t wanna call 911

Why?

There’s so many corrupt cops in this county I’m scared of them

That is true

Every week on our local abc or cbs they are launching another investigation into Knox police

Oh

4:15 AM

Okay then I understand why you don't want to call 911

4:15 AM

How about 988 then.

They will call 911

Not necessarily

4:17 AM

I have contacted 988 about 5 or so times

4:17 AM

They always say that you (as in the person who is texting/calling them) should call 911/non emergency line

4:18 AM

Heck they did that just now when I was contacting them earlier

I don’t want to

I understand that it's scary to contact them

4:19 AM

Heck I hesitate all the time to contact them

4:19 AM

However they will give you much more help than a 13 year old can.

Much more help then a 14 year old

Here is something I found, that was credited by multiple people

4:24 AM

"Crisis-lines that do not engage in non-consensual active rescue (i.e. do NOT call 911, emergency services, and/or law enforcement): Blackline hotline centering BIPOC (Black, Indigenous and People of Color) with LGTBQ+ Black Femme lens (800) 604-5841 LGBT National Help Center hotline run by and for LGBTQ+ people (888) 843-4564 StrongHearts Native Helpline helpline centering Native Americans and Alaska Natives (844) 762-8483 THRIVE Lifeline 24/7 text-based crisis support to anyone 18+ with specific focus on multiply marginalized communities (313) 662-8209 Trans Lifeline hotline (877) 565-8860 Wildflower Alliance trained peer support line (888) 407-4515"

4:24 AM

I have had that saved for a while and never knew when I was going to need it

I’ve got the knife again im sorry

Austin left the group. 3/14/2025 4:26 AM

@Antenna

Antenna added Austin to the group. 3/14/2025 4:26 AM

Austin

I’ve got the knife again im sorry

NO

4:26 AM

AUSTIN LISTEN

4:26 AM

PLEASE DON'T

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Don’t add me back for a bit

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