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austin's support group
flybotworld added Antenna to the group. 3/14/2025 3:05 AM
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:05 AM
@Austin
3:06 AM
killing yourself is a bad thing
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:06 AM
Yeah
3:06 AM
We care about you so much
3:06 AM
Austin you are one of my best friends
3:06 AM
And I know dalk said that.
3:07 AM
But for me, it's true
3:07 AM
You are like an older brother to me.
Austin 3/14/2025 3:07 AM
it doesnt matter anymore so much painful shit has happened and so many people who I cared about and loved used me and abandoned me
3:07 AM
ive been in this community for 10/11 years now Ive seen shit like this everyday since I was 11
3:07 AM
its fucked with me
3:07 AM
and its not getting better
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:08 AM
nothing is geting better cause nothing is changing
Antenna added Polotiks to the group. 3/14/2025 3:09 AM
flybotworld changed the channel name: austin's support group 3/14/2025 3:09 AM
flybotworld
nothing is geting better cause nothing is changing
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:09 AM
You have the power to change things austin
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:09 AM
austin dont
Austin 3/14/2025 3:09 AM
I trusted 4D and my ex, I trusted mapguy and zach, I trusted dorian, I trusted dalk
3:09 AM
look what all happened
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:09 AM
dalk still wants to be your friend
3:09 AM
he pleads to me everyday
Austin
I trusted 4D and my ex, I trusted mapguy and zach, I trusted dorian, I trusted dalk
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:09 AM
It's because most of them used you
3:10 AM
4D did
3:10 AM
Your Ex did
3:10 AM
Dorian did
3:10 AM
Zach did
3:10 AM
Pretty much all of them did
Austin 3/14/2025 3:10 AM
they all hurt me so much and none of them care
Polotiks
he pleads to me everyday
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:10 AM
Same to me as well
Austin
they all hurt me so much and none of them care
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:10 AM
dalk does care
3:10 AM
if you want proof i can add him here if hes awake
3:11 AM
which i think hes alseep rn
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:11 AM
We can do that later.
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:11 AM
i want austin to know dalk cares about him
Antenna
We can do that later.
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:11 AM
I do think it's important for dalk to hear Austin's side and vice versa
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:11 AM
and that hes not bad
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:11 AM
i want austin to know people care about him
Austin 3/14/2025 3:11 AM
dalk and cat dont care or they wouldnt hace done what they did
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:11 AM
we all care
Austin 3/14/2025 3:11 AM
no one cares
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:11 AM
that he isn't alone
Austin
no one cares
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:12 AM
Austin
3:12 AM
I care.
3:12 AM
Polo cares
3:12 AM
Flybot cares (edited)
3:12 AM
(I'm sorry for that typo)
1
3:12 AM
we all care Austin.
Austin
no one cares
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:12 AM
we care
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:13 AM
I would be DEVASTATED if you killed yourself
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:13 AM
devastated
Antenna
I would be DEVASTATED if you killed yourself
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:13 AM
You are one of my best friends Austin
3:13 AM
I enjoy having someone to talk to every day
3:13 AM
Having someone to talk to and share to.
Antenna
I would be DEVASTATED if you killed yourself
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:13 AM
we all would
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:13 AM
I enjoy having someone to play minecraft with.
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:13 AM
Life wouldn't be the same without you Austin
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:14 AM
thats what it boils down to in the end, doesn't it.
Austin 3/14/2025 3:15 AM
I cant get past the pain of it all Im still in pain over dorian and zach and now this
3:15 AM
its too much
3:15 AM
theres no use anymore
Austin
its too much
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:16 AM
I understand that it is a lot
3:16 AM
But think about the good times you had here
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:16 AM
weve had many good times
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:16 AM
many
Austin 3/14/2025 3:16 AM
the only thing I can think about thats good right now is the friends that I still have but I fear everyday losing them
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:16 AM
one of the good times ive had with you was the minecraft server (edited)
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:17 AM
we are here for you
Austin 3/14/2025 3:17 AM
im just ready to end it
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:18 AM
no please
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:18 AM
i know we sound like a broken record
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:18 AM
call 988
3:18 AM
im begging
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:18 AM
Call 911
3:18 AM
Do it for us
3:18 AM
Please
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:19 AM
no not 911
Austin 3/14/2025 3:19 AM
im not calling anyone
3:19 AM
at all
flybotworld
no not 911
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:19 AM
If he's a threat to himself then he needs emergency services
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:19 AM
988 has a texting line too if you need
Antenna
If he's a threat to himself then he needs emergency services
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:19 AM
sorry
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:19 AM
Don't be
Austin 3/14/2025 3:19 AM
im not calling or texting anyone
Polotiks
988 has a texting line too if you need
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:19 AM
^
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:19 AM
you can also text HOME to 741-741
Austin
im not calling or texting anyone
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:19 AM
Please austin
Austin
im not calling or texting anyone
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:19 AM
please
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:19 AM
Do it for us.
3:19 AM
At least
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:19 AM
austin im sorry but you need to
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:20 AM
do it for the freinds you have made
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:20 AM
theres not much we can do
3:20 AM
other than talk you out of it (edited)
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:20 AM
and if we can't do that
3:21 AM
i guess we can't do anything
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:21 AM
no fly
3:21 AM
we can
3:21 AM
friends get through everything together
3:21 AM
thats what we are for
3:23 AM
austin are you okay
Austin 3/14/2025 3:23 AM
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:23 AM
look
3:23 AM
im gonna listen to ali
3:23 AM
if it makes you feel better
Austin
Click to see attachment 🖼️
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:23 AM
Austin no. Please
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:23 AM
go ahead
3:24 AM
im not going to sit here and make you not delete it
Austin 3/14/2025 3:24 AM
I wanna delete it then stab myself
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:24 AM
NO
Austin
I wanna delete it then stab myself
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:25 AM
NO
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:27 AM
austin please
3:27 AM
dont do this
3:28 AM
austin are you okay
3:28 AM
austin?
flybotworld 3/14/2025 3:28 AM
its okay not to be okay
3:28 AM
austin?
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:28 AM
austin we are here
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:28 AM
AUSTIN
3:28 AM
shit
Austin 3/14/2025 3:37 AM
just so much pain
3:37 AM
over and over
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:38 AM
I understand.
3:38 AM
Your extremely strong Austin
3:38 AM
For going though all of that
3:38 AM
And still being here
Austin 3/14/2025 3:38 AM
im not gonna make it through it
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:38 AM
Yes you are Austin
3:38 AM
Listen to me. Put the knife as far away as you can and go back into your room
3:39 AM
Okay
3:39 AM
?
Austin 3/14/2025 3:39 AM
I put it on my desk I use it incase someone breaks in
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:39 AM
Alright
3:39 AM
Promise me you won't touch it to harm yourself
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:39 AM
just keep it as far away as you can from you
Austin 3/14/2025 3:39 AM
I cant promise that
Austin
I cant promise that
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:39 AM
Please Austin
Austin 3/14/2025 3:40 AM
I already cut my hand with it earlier and bled a lot
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:40 AM
:/
3:40 AM
Let's not have that happen again
3:40 AM
Harming yourself only makes things worse
Antenna
Let's not have that happen again
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:41 AM
he did it on accident picking it up
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:41 AM
Oh
3:41 AM
Mb
Austin 3/14/2025 3:41 AM
well
3:41 AM
it was on accident at first
3:41 AM
then once it happened I helped it
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:41 AM
Oh...
3:42 AM
Please promise me that you won't harm yourself
Austin 3/14/2025 3:43 AM
I cant promise that
3:43 AM
sure you got me to put the knife down for rn but itll happen again
3:43 AM
I know it will
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:43 AM
At least promise me you won't kill yourself
Austin 3/14/2025 3:43 AM
I dont even wanna "harm myself"
3:43 AM
I just wanna die
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:44 AM
Do you believe you're an active threat to your life.
3:44 AM
Answer truthfully
Austin 3/14/2025 3:44 AM
depends
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:44 AM
What do you mean by that
Austin 3/14/2025 3:44 AM
you got me to put the knife down rn
3:44 AM
but idk about later
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:44 AM
i saw a message get deleted
Austin
you got me to put the knife down rn
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:45 AM
If you feel like you're gonna harm yourself/kill yourself
3:45 AM
Call me
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:45 AM
what was it
Antenna
Call me
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:45 AM
Like my cell
3:45 AM
Don't use the Arn number
3:45 AM
Use my personal one
Austin 3/14/2025 3:45 AM
if your at your friends later today I dont wanna bother you with all my pain
3:45 AM
im just sorry I put you guys through this too
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:45 AM
I do not care
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:45 AM
call antenna, any family/friends, or 988
Austin
if your at your friends later today I dont wanna bother you with all my pain
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:45 AM
Call me
3:45 AM
If you feel like
3:46 AM
You want to harm yourself
3:46 AM
Okay
3:46 AM
I do not care if I get interrupted by you when I'm with your friends if it's an emergency
3:46 AM
And in this case, it is.
3:46 AM
My friends will understand
Austin 3/14/2025 3:47 AM
Idk how much more of life I can do
3:47 AM
like genuinely
3:47 AM
im ready for it to be over
Austin
like genuinely
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:47 AM
Austin you have so much to live for okay
3:48 AM
If you die now, you will leave all of your friends
3:48 AM
You will never find anyone to love
3:48 AM
You won't be able to be with your cats & dogs
3:48 AM
You won't be able to taste your favorite food again
Austin 3/14/2025 3:48 AM
at this point im gonna just keep getting used and abandoned by those I love the most
3:48 AM
fuck it
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:49 AM
You won't get used by me or floppa. I can promise that
3:49 AM
Your super kind Austin.
3:49 AM
And the only downside to that
3:49 AM
Is that people will sadly use that kindness for their own benefit
3:50 AM
And I bet it's horrible
3:50 AM
To have to go through that
Austin 3/14/2025 3:50 AM
literally jaden, 4d, zach, mapguy, dorian, dalk, cat
3:50 AM
they dont care what they did
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:51 AM
Sadly that is true for most of that.
Polotiks 3/14/2025 3:51 AM
cat and dalk care
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:51 AM
But you have to be strong
3:51 AM
Austin
3:51 AM
And lucky for you. You're incredibly strong and smart.
3:51 AM
I mean, you literally run one of the biggest TWC servers in the community
3:52 AM
That is something to be proud of
Austin 3/14/2025 3:52 AM
im getting the knife again fuck this
3:52 AM
im sorry
3:52 AM
I appreciate you guys
3:52 AM
I prob wont respond agai
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:52 AM
Austin
3:52 AM
Listen
3:52 AM
Put down the knife
3:52 AM
I will call emergency services and request a welfare check
3:53 AM
I want you alive
Austin 3/14/2025 3:53 AM
you dont know my address
Austin
you dont know my address
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:53 AM
Sadly I don't
3:53 AM
3:54 AM
I'm sorry Austin. But like I said, I want you alive.
3:54 AM
And I will do anything to protect you.
Austin 3/14/2025 3:54 AM
just dont call them
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:55 AM
Then put the knife down
Austin 3/14/2025 3:55 AM
I dont need my family finding shit out
Antenna
Then put the knife down
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:55 AM
I'm sorry Austin. But you have too
Austin
I dont need my family finding shit out
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:55 AM
I don't either
3:55 AM
But I want you alive. You mean so much to all of us.
Austin
I dont need my family finding shit out
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:56 AM
Are you alive....
Austin 3/14/2025 3:57 AM
yes
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:57 AM
Thank the heavens.
Austin
yes
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:57 AM
I know you're probably upset with me right now
3:58 AM
But I do hope you understand I just want you to be safe and not kill yourself
3:58 AM
I won't request the welfare check if you put the knife down
Austin 3/14/2025 3:58 AM
im not upset with you at all
3:58 AM
its down for now
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:58 AM
Thank you
3:59 AM
Now how about you get into bed, and rest for the night.
Austin 3/14/2025 3:59 AM
im not gonna be able to sleep
3:59 AM
no one understands
3:59 AM
I sleep for an hour or two
Austin
im not gonna be able to sleep
Antenna 3/14/2025 3:59 AM
At least try too
Austin 3/14/2025 3:59 AM
then wake up in a panic attack
Antenna
At least try too
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:00 AM
Just lay there until you fall asleep... That's what my parents tell me and it works
Austin 3/14/2025 4:00 AM
thats what it has been for the past few weeks
4:00 AM
and they just dont care
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:00 AM
Who?
Austin 3/14/2025 4:01 AM
the people that cause the pain
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:01 AM
It's because they don't like you.
4:01 AM
However
4:01 AM
You cant focus on the people who are out to get you
4:01 AM
You have to focus on the people who do care about you
4:02 AM
The people who will do anything they can to help you
Austin
literally jaden, 4d, zach, mapguy, dorian, dalk, cat
Austin 3/14/2025 4:02 AM
I do focus on this though becasue at one point or another I loved and treasured these people and all of them hurt me and dont care
Antenna
The people who will do anything they can to help you
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:02 AM
The people who may have different views on stuff, but still value you as a friend, best friend, or even as a brother.
Austin
I do focus on this though becasue at one point or another I loved and treasured these people and all of them hurt me and dont care
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:02 AM
And those people and fuck themselves
4:03 AM
Okay
4:03 AM
They can't be living in your head rent free
Austin 3/14/2025 4:03 AM
its trauma and pain that I cant escape
4:03 AM
everyday gets worse
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:03 AM
:/
4:05 AM
I know you will probably hate me for saying this
4:05 AM
But have you tried looking at therapists? https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists/in/knox
Find Therapists and Psychologists in Knox, IN - Psychology Today
Browse verified therapists in Knox, IN, available in-person or online: Touchstone Counseling Services; Tracy Stillman, LSW; Emily Vassar, MSW, LSW
Austin 3/14/2025 4:05 AM
I have one I tell you each week when I see her..
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:05 AM
Mb
Austin
I have one I tell you each week when I see her..
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:05 AM
Are you on any medications?
Austin 3/14/2025 4:06 AM
no
4:06 AM
well I am one for when I actually hace anxiety attacks but other than that no
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:06 AM
I would talk to your therapist about getting some for general anxiety
4:06 AM
And maybe ask her if you can get a test for depression
4:06 AM
Because you are showing all the signs my brother has
4:07 AM
And he has depression
Austin 3/14/2025 4:07 AM
they said they want to do testing but results take 6-9 months
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:07 AM
:/
4:07 AM
Well at least wait for the results
Austin 3/14/2025 4:08 AM
I just wanna die
Antenna
Well at least wait for the results
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:08 AM
I do believe you could possibly have it, as you do show similar signs as my brother (suicidal, not wanting professional help, focusing on the people who hurt you). However I am not a professional
Austin
I just wanna die
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:09 AM
I understand but you have so many people who care about you
4:09 AM
At around 4 am I am going to try to get some rest. I have a busy day (edited)
4:09 AM
But if you pick that knife up
4:09 AM
Call me immediately
4:09 AM
Personal cell,
4:09 AM
Not arn
4:09 AM
Not discord
4:10 AM
Or call 911.
Austin 3/14/2025 4:10 AM
I don’t wanna bother
Austin
I don’t wanna bother
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:10 AM
I do not care
4:10 AM
You are like a brother to me and I will treat you as such.
4:11 AM
That means I will always be here.
4:11 AM
Call me. If I'm asleep I might not immediately answer
4:11 AM
But I do not care if you bother me
4:11 AM
I care more about YOUR safety.
Austin 3/14/2025 4:12 AM
I care more about not bothering people and having more people leave me
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:12 AM
I won't leave you Austin
4:12 AM
I promise you that
4:12 AM
And I want you to know that
4:12 AM
Okay
4:12 AM
I will never leave you
4:12 AM
And I will always be here
4:12 AM
Yes I may not respond immediately. I am a busy person.
4:13 AM
But I will always be here for emotional support
4:13 AM
And again. If it's an emergency. Call my cell.
4:13 AM
Or better yet, 911.
Austin 3/14/2025 4:13 AM
I don’t wanna call 911
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:14 AM
Why?
Austin 3/14/2025 4:14 AM
There’s so many corrupt cops in this county I’m scared of them
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:14 AM
That is true
Austin 3/14/2025 4:15 AM
Every week on our local abc or cbs they are launching another investigation into Knox police
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:15 AM
Oh
4:15 AM
Okay then I understand why you don't want to call 911
4:15 AM
How about 988 then.
Austin 3/14/2025 4:15 AM
They will call 911
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:16 AM
Not necessarily
4:17 AM
I have contacted 988 about 5 or so times
4:17 AM
They always say that you (as in the person who is texting/calling them) should call 911/non emergency line
4:18 AM
Heck they did that just now when I was contacting them earlier
Austin 3/14/2025 4:18 AM
I don’t want to
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:19 AM
I understand that it's scary to contact them
4:19 AM
Heck I hesitate all the time to contact them
4:19 AM
However they will give you much more help than a 13 year old can.
flybotworld 3/14/2025 4:19 AM
Much more help then a 14 year old
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:23 AM
Here is something I found, that was credited by multiple people
4:24 AM
"Crisis-lines that do not engage in non-consensual active rescue (i.e. do NOT call 911, emergency services, and/or law enforcement): Blackline hotline centering BIPOC (Black, Indigenous and People of Color) with LGTBQ+ Black Femme lens (800) 604-5841 LGBT National Help Center hotline run by and for LGBTQ+ people (888) 843-4564 StrongHearts Native Helpline helpline centering Native Americans and Alaska Natives (844) 762-8483 THRIVE Lifeline 24/7 text-based crisis support to anyone 18+ with specific focus on multiply marginalized communities (313) 662-8209 Trans Lifeline hotline (877) 565-8860 Wildflower Alliance trained peer support line (888) 407-4515"
4:24 AM
I have had that saved for a while and never knew when I was going to need it
Austin 3/14/2025 4:26 AM
I’ve got the knife again im sorry
Austin left the group. 3/14/2025 4:26 AM
flybotworld 3/14/2025 4:26 AM
@Antenna
Antenna added Austin to the group. 3/14/2025 4:26 AM
Austin
I’ve got the knife again im sorry
Antenna 3/14/2025 4:26 AM
NO
4:26 AM
AUSTIN LISTEN
4:26 AM
PLEASE DON'T
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Austin 3/14/2025 5:22 AM
Don’t add me back for a bit
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